I've an appointment with the CMHT (community mental health team) tomorrow morning - this morning really. My alarm is set for about 6.5 hours from now. Was messing with burning which I don't count as burning because it doesn't scar. Finally stopped. I don't feel nervous at all. I guess I am in some way.…
Journaling 101 22nd Sept 20
My head's hurting and I want to try and sleep but I need to get some stuff down. Really 2 entirely different points. I feel guilty writing on here when others may read and I've read about 3 posts from others in the past 3 weeks. (I usually read every post of everyone who follows…
Journaling 103 (6) What do I need in order for it to change?
I dialogue journalled last night for at least a couple hours. There's both what I need in order to stop, and what I need or needs to change so that I don't need the destruction. In order to stop I just need support. What that would look like is people checking in with me. Believing…
Journalling 103 (5) GP App and referrals
I saw my GP today. Last week wrote up with him a referral for the CMHT. I asked him for a copy of the letter the therapist from primary care services sent to him. I called up primary care services for a copy and they told me my GP can give me a copy. Her…
Protected: Journaling 103 (2). NHS therapist
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Random.
Today was a calmer day. Used less cocodamol. Swept a bit the mess I made last night with what I did. Ate too much (for what I feel I should eat. Honestly I'm also grateful I ate more than I wanted to). Not sure how come I've used less but I did. Tried to get…
Protected: Journaling 101
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58720 – Do I want therapy?
So, I spoke this woman. She seemed nice. For a referral from a year or so ago. I don't know if I want therapy. I don't know what I want. I know that I should be open to the messages the universe sends to me. It, and the next couple appointments are just assessing to…
I miss AH
I miss AH (ex-therapist). I would love to send him a whatsapp message saying so. I can't for it wouldn't be healthy for me. He'd actually be touched to know that I miss him. If he even remembers me. I wonder what would happen if I would. He'd either ignore it or ask me if…
I think I feel sad
I think I feel sad. I don't know how to define what I feel. But I feel something (which is actually a pretty big deal for me). I think it's sad. There's so much on my mind. This morning I sat down to journal, but I just didn't know what to write. Same with last…
Journey to life 