Dear E Welcome to a new day. Of possibility. Of hope. Of sunshine. I just wanted to drop you a line to tell you how proud I am of you.I'm proud that you're here.I'm proud of you for choosing life, or not choosing death- the easy way out.I'm proud of you for practicing mindfulness.I'm proud…
Journaling 103 (10) Trigger Warning
Wrote this for an Instagram story. Edit. MBSR course going well. Weeks been way too hard (as all those whose posts I always comment on - I tend to comment on every post of my folliqers/following will know I haven't been reading much). CMHT app in 2.5 weeks. Had my friends sign up for the…
Journaling 103 (9) TW
I've nothing to say. I wrote 2 more pages in my gratitude journal. Aiming for 2700 for when I'm 27. I'm weird. This is one of the things I journalled about today. I see myself to getting to 2700 gratitudes. I don't know if there's a point buying new things or getting the tooth work…
I’m tired.
Journaling 103 (6) What do I need in order for it to change?
I dialogue journalled last night for at least a couple hours. There's both what I need in order to stop, and what I need or needs to change so that I don't need the destruction. In order to stop I just need support. What that would look like is people checking in with me. Believing…
Journalling 103 (5) GP App and referrals
I saw my GP today. Last week wrote up with him a referral for the CMHT. I asked him for a copy of the letter the therapist from primary care services sent to him. I called up primary care services for a copy and they told me my GP can give me a copy. Her…
Protected: Journaling 103 (2). NHS therapist
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Trigger warning.
Not for under 18s. There's nothing to write for it's all just lies and more lies. I don't know what's reality and what's not. What's reality? Right now I'm sitting on the floor leaning against my bed. I feel the floor. I feel the bed. I feel tears in my eyes. I see the screen.…
Letter to myself: 16th August 2020. I love you and I’m glad you’re here.
Dear E I'm glad you're here. I'm grateful to be on this journey. And I'm hopeful for where this journey could lead. I'm with you always E, and I will be with you always. Through the ups and through the downs. Keep rebuilding. Take the pieces and create something new. You get to choose what…
Dialogue with myself about Hope and Destruction
19th July 2020 E, who is running the show?Life, I think.What does 'Life' look like?Not Life. Hope is.What does 'Hope' look like?Not like Destruction. What does Destruction look like?I can't see because it is so all encompassing that it is everything so not possible to define it.What does Hope want?Love.Can you give Hope Love?No. I…
Journey to life 