Today was a calmer day. Used less cocodamol. Swept a bit the mess I made last night with what I did. Ate too much (for what I feel I should eat. Honestly I'm also grateful I ate more than I wanted to). Not sure how come I've used less but I did. Tried to get…
Letter to myself 10th August. I love you.
E I love you. I don't know how to take your pain away. And I guess I don't need to take your pain away. You're allowed to hurt. You're allowed to exist. You're allowed to be. I know you can't hear me. I know you don't believe me. I'll keep telling you until you know…
Today’s thoughts/update
This is more of an update for myself. I want to figure out a way forward. I don't know what that looks like or would look like. I am still using. Living with ED. I don't count SH for it's not constant but random so in my mind I'm not. Also because if it doesn't…
How do you identify yourself?
Just a thought. Trying to clarify this in my mind. There's a lot of darkness. There's a lot of negativity. Some of the choices I'm making really are not the best. However, and this is a big point, I get to choose what I identify with. How I identify myself. What choices define me and…
Gratitude challenge: Day 23
Day 23: What change last year are you grateful for? I'm grateful that I hate myself less. It's less 'I hate myself', and more 'I hate what I did'. I've noticed that I stop saying, writing and thinking I hate myself when it's about something. What change are you grateful for? Gratitude challenge day 23:…
Journey to life 