I don't know how much sense this is going to make since there's so much flying around my head and I'm writing this just to get it down and give me some space. Funny, usually I'd give myself time to absorb things. I didn't write out the rest of week 4 - I had 3…
MBSR (5) Striving vs Accepting. Where both are true.
Striving. Aiming for somewhere. Accepting. Accepting yourself and where you're at. This has been playing around in my head today since they said a day ago that mindfulness means non striving. I began writing about it in my previous post about the class. If I could have actually said it then, I would've. Mindfulness means…
MBSR (2) – Primary and Secondary Experiences
I don't think I'll write this well but wanted to put this down for someone here. Random thought. Mindfulness reminds me a lot of Innate Health. Of just being. Reminder of mindfulness attitudes • Beginners mind - curiosity• Not judging• Patience• Non striving - don't stress too much - have a goal but don't put…
Letter to myself: 16th August 2020. I love you and I’m glad you’re here.
Dear E I'm glad you're here. I'm grateful to be on this journey. And I'm hopeful for where this journey could lead. I'm with you always E, and I will be with you always. Through the ups and through the downs. Keep rebuilding. Take the pieces and create something new. You get to choose what…
Inner child
I often would fantasise at night. As in imagine myself in a situation. Not healthy fantasies. I've been listening to ACA meetings - adult children of alcoholics. My parents weren't alcoholics for the record. I've really related to it. The depiction of feelings. Of black and white thinking. Approval. Can go on. So the last…
Letter to myself 10th August. I love you.
E I love you. I don't know how to take your pain away. And I guess I don't need to take your pain away. You're allowed to hurt. You're allowed to exist. You're allowed to be. I know you can't hear me. I know you don't believe me. I'll keep telling you until you know…
How do you identify yourself?
Just a thought. Trying to clarify this in my mind. There's a lot of darkness. There's a lot of negativity. Some of the choices I'm making really are not the best. However, and this is a big point, I get to choose what I identify with. How I identify myself. What choices define me and…
58720 – Do I want therapy?
So, I spoke this woman. She seemed nice. For a referral from a year or so ago. I don't know if I want therapy. I don't know what I want. I know that I should be open to the messages the universe sends to me. It, and the next couple appointments are just assessing to…
Gratitude challenge: Day 23
Day 23: What change last year are you grateful for? I'm grateful that I hate myself less. It's less 'I hate myself', and more 'I hate what I did'. I've noticed that I stop saying, writing and thinking I hate myself when it's about something. What change are you grateful for? Gratitude challenge day 23:…
24985 – rambling update. (Could be triggering.)
The world is a good place. I feel guilty. A friend needed help I couldn't give. So I didn't give it to her. I could have gone beyond myself. I didn't. She called an acquaintance of hers who stepped in and arranged do much for her. I couldn't have done what this acquaintance did. I…
Journey to life 