There is a book called Goodbye Ed. Hello Me. (Ed = eating disorder, by Jenni Schaefer). I think it goes the other way too. Hello Ed. Goodbye Me.
Can one recover from an Eating Disorder
What does recovery look like?
So many people view recovery as complete abstinence from whatever it is (too many things to list) for life. Although for now that is how it is for me, I need the complete abstinence for else I’ll mess up, I believe it doesn’t have to be that way. I believe recovery means that it’s no longer a part of your life. That it’s a non issue.
What do you think?
Thank you S.S for writing and sharing this. I really appreciate it! For proving that it can be done.
Recovery IS possible.
So long as there’s life, there’s hope.
This post is for Eliza following her request earlier today. Check out her blog https://elizajourneythroughlife.home.blog/.
I’ve written a number of posts about living with and overcoming from an eating disorder. Today I want to talk about living in recovery. I’ve been recovered for about 10 years now. It’s different in so many ways. One of them is having the ability to actively choose to self-soothe with food without going in a full relapse.
Shortly after my mother died I had a stressful day that pushed me to my emotional limits. Grief, stress, and worry weighed on me. One of those days where everything goes wrong and nothing helps relieve it. I’d used every coping skill in my arsenal. I thought about how much I just wanted a piece of cake. I went through the mental gymnastics of how it wouldn’t really make it better and all the reasons why…
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24985 – rambling update. (Could be triggering.)
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Dear E Good morning! Welcome to a new day. E, I just wanted to tell you that I'm with you, and that you aren't alone. You've got this. There is a lot going on in your head. You don't have to figure it all out. There is a lot going on in the world and…
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