I'm thinking, in theory, maybe, perhaps - the theoretically, potentially, possibly, perhaps, kinda maybe - to ask my friend to throw away the cocodamol I have in my draw when I'm away. It's just a thought. It would probably be good for me not to have 1k++ in my draw. If only I'd have that…
I planned on writing a F:AK post today but forgot about it because I haven't been feeling great. There went desert for this shabbat 🙂 but I have the ingredients to make it next week. Are there ever times you don't really remember what happened? I don't mean dissociation or amnesia due to disassociation. I…
Today is a new day. Exhausted. I'm finding work really long.... I'm enjoying some of what I do, not all. I think if I ever feel like I'm getting somewhere with one of my groups then I'll be happy. I just find them draining because it drags and I feel like I'm getting absolutely nowhere.…
My arm is really hurting. I think the blister peeled, it wasn't intentional, I'm not sure how it happened, and it's just hurting. There isn't anything I can do about it, or that I even want to do. It's just a constant awareness of my arm. I've been burning a little less. Sleeping more. I'm…
A year ago Simon wrote a letter to himself in a years time, and I copied the idea (where's this years letter Si?). I just read the letter I wrote to myself to be read in 2020, and my plan for the past year. It makes me both nostalgic, and appreciate what is right now.…
How do I get from A to B? How do I get from where I am now, to where I want to be? I spent today freaking out. I realised later on that I was on the verge of a panic attack. That is actually major news for me. The realisation and awareness I mean.…
I'm wondering if it was my imagination that I was okay. Took cocodamol and if I wasn't cutting off I would be scaring myself. I'm not crossing into the danger zone as of now but way too close for my liking. It wasn't meant to be this way. I thought that was it with self…
I wrote this out last night (including these bracketed annotations that explain all that I mean), and it got deleted (thanks wordpress), so I'm writing it out again. I wrote to myself which didn't help at all, so decided to try this. Eliza, what is going on? I want to burn myself So why aren't…
This is a question for anyone who has ever used or engaged with anything negative that they've stopped or want to. If you don't mind sharing I'd love to hear, what are your reasons? I'm choosing self harm for the title for that's what I want to do now. Not like I haven't been until…
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Journey to life 