I'm sad. I wonder if I have a way to express what I'm thinking. Unless it flows, and the words just work, it doesn't happen. I don't do analysing what I write. Either I write. Or I don't. I'm sad. Have been since Thursday. Since he killed himself. He killed himself. I didn't know him.…
SBA – Thank you for being you.
Sunshine blogger award. I know plenty of people don't do these posts, so, it's not for you to actually continue the chain (well you can if you want to), rather it's my way of telling you what you mean to me. I wasn't sure if I was going to do this post or not, but…
This week has been a good week
I'm grateful. For another week. Of life. This week has just been okay. It's been awesome, as in, that it's been okay. Sunshine, sunlight, occasional blue skies, birds twittering, and okayness. I'm grateful for it. I'm grateful that the craziness of the couple of weeks spent freaking out and on the constant verge of self…
Scribbling
Spent a couple of minutes scribbling because of freaking. I feel like I have to choose- if these (some of are here) are an indication- between being trapped and being free. I feel like there are daggers drawn, ready to be shot. Whatever I choose is wrong. I miss ah. I wish I could send…
I wish I could cry
I want to cry. Feel like I need to cry. I don't know why. To be honest I couldn't care why. It doesn't really make a difference why. I need to cry. And, and I don't know how to. I don't know how to cry. It's not like I've never cried. Well, I never used…
Rambling update 497. Awesomeness. The world. Life
The world is an awesome place to me. I'm exhausted at the moment. Completely exhausted. Just been busy (and not sleeping much). But it's all good. The world feels like a good place. I've been writing out the letters to myself. I wrote out the one from a few weeks ago, and, I was so…
Clouds
Clouds. Kate gave a Friday fun post for clouds. I love the topic! I love all her topics 🙂 but this one especially. I wish I had the patience to go through all my pictures and find the cloud ones. These, I knew where they were. If someone wants to sort out my images for…
Make a life for yourself.
I start in the middle of sentences. I'm teaching my students to start at the beginning, yet it's something I don't do. I had a plan for this post. Then another plan. Now another plan. So I've no clue yet which of the three I'll write about. Last night I was on the phone to…
Who comes first?
Who comes first? I wonder. Last night, actually 2 days ago, AG texted me that she'd love to go out. AG is someone I was talking about once on here, someone who will ask me to be there when she needs me. Who I will give my time to. The last time I went out…
I feel like I’m failing
I feel like I'm failing. I feel like I'm failing because I want to use What I'm failing to take into account is that I'm not using - and that even if I do end up taking cocodamol, I'll cross that bridge when I get to it, I haven't failed now. I feel like I'm…
Journey to life 