Is suicide the solution?

Suicide. It's a word that scares many and brings hope to others. I started my blog elizareasonstolive (which for now is down) when I wanted to focus on the reasons to live, rather than reasons to die. I would post reasons to live, at the same time as doing things to end my life. I…

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Gratitude challenge: Day 14

Gratitude Challenge

Day 14: What recent challenge are you grateful for? I'm grateful for the last time I messed up - a few months ago. I'm grateful because of all it taught me. I'm grateful because seeing what it was like for me then, using to burn and burning, actually showed me how far I'd come. Everything…

Dialogue with myself re self harm

I wrote this out last night (including these bracketed annotations that explain all that I mean), and it got deleted (thanks wordpress), so I'm writing it out again. I wrote to myself which didn't help at all, so decided to try this. Eliza, what is going on? I want to burn myself So why aren't…

TW. Rambling 37915

There's nothing thereThey don't understand thatThere really isNothing. There. Nothingness.It's as though I'm watchingMyselfObservingFrom the viewing tower Disconnect? CheckDistance? CheckConnection? NopePresent? Maybe There is nothing there I can't get throughThe glass wallI don't knowI don't know what is thereI don't know what is there Sometimes I wonderIf there is anything at allI'm scared I'll come…

Today’s a good day

Today is a new day. I haven't written anything on my blog in a while, for I'm just never sure what to write. There is too much and I always feel like I'm incoherent. Regarding working through what I believe I've decided to go ahead with it. It was interesting, I was reading through my…