Trigger warning. Please do not read this if it could trigger or disrupt you in any way. I was thinking. About how much I think about using cocodamol. Just a few. Just to see if it helps. I liked bgddyjim's post. It got me thinking. How using, which I think of so often, even just…
Thinking about using.
Why did I use? To destroy myself. I had to get rid of myself and the way to do so was through playing with the edge. Why did I escape? Because of the guilt. I escaped with everything and anything. A lot innocuous. I never lived in the world. I was never present. Coz of…
Sadness
I'm sad. I wonder if I have a way to express what I'm thinking. Unless it flows, and the words just work, it doesn't happen. I don't do analysing what I write. Either I write. Or I don't. I'm sad. Have been since Thursday. Since he killed himself. He killed himself. I didn't know him.…
Journey to life 