I've an appointment with the CMHT (community mental health team) tomorrow morning - this morning really. My alarm is set for about 6.5 hours from now. Was messing with burning which I don't count as burning because it doesn't scar. Finally stopped. I don't feel nervous at all. I guess I am in some way.…
Journaling 101 22nd Sept 20
My head's hurting and I want to try and sleep but I need to get some stuff down. Really 2 entirely different points. I feel guilty writing on here when others may read and I've read about 3 posts from others in the past 3 weeks. (I usually read every post of everyone who follows…
Journaling 103 (10) Trigger Warning
Wrote this for an Instagram story. Edit. MBSR course going well. Weeks been way too hard (as all those whose posts I always comment on - I tend to comment on every post of my folliqers/following will know I haven't been reading much). CMHT app in 2.5 weeks. Had my friends sign up for the…
Journaling 103 (9) TW
I've nothing to say. I wrote 2 more pages in my gratitude journal. Aiming for 2700 for when I'm 27. I'm weird. This is one of the things I journalled about today. I see myself to getting to 2700 gratitudes. I don't know if there's a point buying new things or getting the tooth work…
I’m tired.
MBSR – mindfulness course, thoughts (1)
Just noticed that my upper arms were tense. But coz I noticed it they aren't so much (often when I tune into something it's too much so isn't there) . I'm definitely more aware of my body. Ive been writing out some of my last letters to myself, in them I was often grounding myself…
Is this what staying with reality looks like?
This is what I wrote on instagram now. The last line is what I'm thinking about here. (It will be easier to understand if you've read what I wrote here.) I said that the truth is I still don't know what to do with myself. I've woken myself up, but I haven't done anything. What…
Letter to myself: 12th August 2020. I’m with you.
Dear E I'm here. I'm with you. I'm sorry I can't take your pain away. I can be with you. I am with you. I will be with you. I can't ease the pain. I can, am, and will stay with you through it. You will get past it E. Life, just living, doesn't always…
Journey to life 