I don't know if I should write this or not. But it's probably better to than thinking about it. Just a lot of thoughts coming together to create a picture. Yesterday I was telling my sister that my parents should have known I was physically sensitive. I didn't know this until a couple weeks ago…
How do you identify yourself?
Just a thought. Trying to clarify this in my mind. There's a lot of darkness. There's a lot of negativity. Some of the choices I'm making really are not the best. However, and this is a big point, I get to choose what I identify with. How I identify myself. What choices define me and…
58720 – Do I want therapy?
So, I spoke this woman. She seemed nice. For a referral from a year or so ago. I don't know if I want therapy. I don't know what I want. I know that I should be open to the messages the universe sends to me. It, and the next couple appointments are just assessing to…
24985 – rambling update. (Could be triggering.)
The world is a good place. I feel guilty. A friend needed help I couldn't give. So I didn't give it to her. I could have gone beyond myself. I didn't. She called an acquaintance of hers who stepped in and arranged do much for her. I couldn't have done what this acquaintance did. I…
What is the connection between krav maga and fighting the monsters/demons in my head?
I wrote this a while ago. The 18th of November to be precise. Okay, a long while ago.... Probably after one krav maga class. Not like I know much about it after 3. I thought I had copied it from my journal, but it seems like I haven't. I'm sure that there is more to…
How can I understand relationships (friendships)?
I hope this makes some sort of sense for I am and have been falling asleep as I write this. He lied to me. And that hurts more than anything else he could've said. He didn't really lie to me. He just didn't give me an honest answer. Relationships. All my online relationships don't last.…
Protected: Trigger warning: Do I want to?
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Navigating relationships in my world
Navigating relationships. Well, I've titled the thread before writing anything at all. I know what I want to write about. I wonder if there's a point writing about it. If it will help me. Or anyone. Or if it will make any difference. If it can. Yesterday I went out with someone. I'd been on…
Boundaries 2
Emotional boundaries. I'm using the word boundaries even though I've no clue if it's correct. I wrote about it another day. I think it is called boundaries. Last night I was on the phone to a friend who wasn't doing well. I was freaking out afterwards. I ended up journaling for half an hour and…
Boundaries
I wish I could create boundaries in my world. I mean emotional boundaries/barriers. I've a friend who is sad at the moment. I don't have any words other than 'sad'. One day I'm hoping I will. So she is sad. She is okay. She is sad. She has support and I know she'll be okay.…
Journey to life 