I've kinda been living in my head these past months. I've come up for air a few times. Looked at either the first posts in my reader, or a few of those in my notifications or emails. I'm not sure who decides what shows where. I haven't been around recently. Not on here. (Nor on…
Relationships, boundaries, and responsibility 3
https://www.instagram.com/p/CG4z2--D-Cu/?igshid=1uxak0kmhdnoo Saying yes, taking responsibility, gave me the right to exist. K, so I'm speculating here, but I'm trying to put my thoughts into words, and either it's true, or it's not. I'm going to put it down. And it could be I'll turn around one day and say that this is nonsense. I grew…
Relationships, boundaries and responsibility 2
I began writing about saying no. And I wanted to continue it. https://www.instagram.com/p/CG4z2--D-Cu/?igshid=1uxak0kmhdnoo I said no. I actually said no. It's both strange, and awesome. Amazing that I put myself first. I was asked to do something really small. It wasn't really what I was asked to do that was hard. It was that she…
Relationships, boundaries, responsibility
I've been meaning to write for a while. I'm in that space where I haven't been posting on instagram either. There's so much to say. And. I don't know. Too much. It's after midnight. I should be going to sleep. And I hate posting on these days because Friday is a kindness post and Sunday…
When there’s nothing to say…
Trigger warning suicidality. ... the past week has been chaotic. Chaotic is an understatement. And there is no way I'd ever write in public what I'm thinking or doing at the time. I wouldn't even wrote it in password protected posts. Because they could be read. Even though I know most people don't read them.…
I've an appointment with the CMHT (community mental health team) tomorrow morning - this morning really. My alarm is set for about 6.5 hours from now. Was messing with burning which I don't count as burning because it doesn't scar. Finally stopped. I don't feel nervous at all. I guess I am in some way.…
Journaling 101 22nd Sept 20
My head's hurting and I want to try and sleep but I need to get some stuff down. Really 2 entirely different points. I feel guilty writing on here when others may read and I've read about 3 posts from others in the past 3 weeks. (I usually read every post of everyone who follows…
In a years time I want to…
I'd appreciate thoughts. I think I'm being really realistic here although it's noncomprehensive as was just writing (I can only 'just write', I don't know how to edit or alter what I say. I only know how to just let my pen or in this case finger talk). I think it's realistic because I didn't…
LTM: 14th September 2020
Dear E Welcome to a new day. Of possibility. Of hope. Of sunshine. I just wanted to drop you a line to tell you how proud I am of you.I'm proud that you're here.I'm proud of you for choosing life, or not choosing death- the easy way out.I'm proud of you for practicing mindfulness.I'm proud…
Journey to life 