I'm wondering if I should try and put my thoughts into words. I haven't sat down to write on here for so long. There's just nothing to say. And everything to say. So I started a new Instagram account. I think I'll actually use it. E.journeytolife I realised the beginning of this week that it's…
I've an appointment with the CMHT (community mental health team) tomorrow morning - this morning really. My alarm is set for about 6.5 hours from now. Was messing with burning which I don't count as burning because it doesn't scar. Finally stopped. I don't feel nervous at all. I guess I am in some way.…
In a years time I want to…
I'd appreciate thoughts. I think I'm being really realistic here although it's noncomprehensive as was just writing (I can only 'just write', I don't know how to edit or alter what I say. I only know how to just let my pen or in this case finger talk). I think it's realistic because I didn't…
LTM: 14th September 2020
Dear E Welcome to a new day. Of possibility. Of hope. Of sunshine. I just wanted to drop you a line to tell you how proud I am of you.I'm proud that you're here.I'm proud of you for choosing life, or not choosing death- the easy way out.I'm proud of you for practicing mindfulness.I'm proud…
Journalling 103 (5) GP App and referrals
I saw my GP today. Last week wrote up with him a referral for the CMHT. I asked him for a copy of the letter the therapist from primary care services sent to him. I called up primary care services for a copy and they told me my GP can give me a copy. Her…
MBSR (3) – Mindfulness and grounding

What does mindfulness mean? What is mindfulness? What does mindfulness do? The way I'd put it simply is being present. To be mindful is to be aware. To be present. Am some people think mindfulness is the same as meditation. Meditation is focus and stillness and is really a different ballgame. It's got some similarities…
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MBSR – mindfulness course, thoughts (1)

Just noticed that my upper arms were tense. But coz I noticed it they aren't so much (often when I tune into something it's too much so isn't there) . I'm definitely more aware of my body. Ive been writing out some of my last letters to myself, in them I was often grounding myself…
Letter to myself: 16th August 2020. I love you and I’m glad you’re here.
Dear E I'm glad you're here. I'm grateful to be on this journey. And I'm hopeful for where this journey could lead. I'm with you always E, and I will be with you always. Through the ups and through the downs. Keep rebuilding. Take the pieces and create something new. You get to choose what…