Trigger warning.
Not for under 18s. There's nothing to write for it's all just lies and more lies. I don't know what's reality and what's not. What's reality? Right now I'm sitting on the floor leaning against my bed. I feel the floor. I feel the bed. I feel tears in my eyes. I see the screen.…
Letter to myself: 12th August 2020. I’m with you.
Dear E I'm here. I'm with you. I'm sorry I can't take your pain away. I can be with you. I am with you. I will be with you. I can't ease the pain. I can, am, and will stay with you through it. You will get past it E. Life, just living, doesn't always…
Letter to myself: 6th April 2020
I haven't often written to myself in the past months and although I talk about what letters to myself have given to me I don't have any on my blog. I may copy out the last ones but this is from this morning. Dear E It is day what of coronavirus? It's 2 plus weeks…
Video of the day – another perspective
Random 273
Tried to sleep but was thinking and shaking so was up. I'm not sure if I should really post this. I'm stupid. Still shaking after an hour plus. It gets annoying when it goes on and there's no discernable cause. So I went onto my private diary to write about it for tired of whinging…
Navigating relationships in my world
Navigating relationships. Well, I've titled the thread before writing anything at all. I know what I want to write about. I wonder if there's a point writing about it. If it will help me. Or anyone. Or if it will make any difference. If it can. Yesterday I went out with someone. I'd been on…
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I don't have anything to write. It doesn't help that I understand what is going on and why, it doesn't make it easier. I just want it to stop. And I can't stop it. I can't make myself believe I'm worth it, however much I know it. I can't change what my life was or…
Loneliness, distance, I wouldn’t know how to define what I mean.
I'm in tears. That's actually a good thing. A good thing coz' it means I'm living with what is. I don't know why I'm crying. Just, sad. Feeling overwhelmed and really alone. Was thinking earlier about people. I wrote some of it down. I wonder if I'm crazy. It's not that. I don't wonder that.…
Song of the day: I wish I could break your heart – Cassadee Pope
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ByGmQn1uxJw Feeling really alone at the moment, was trying to find a song that expresses it, couldn't, but this will have to do. Lyrics I wish I could break your heartI wish I could bring you downJust for a second, teach you a lesson about being alone in the darkI wish I could make you…
Journey to life 