So on edge. Shabbat soon.
Went for a drive. It helped whilst I was driving. Trying to consciously breathe properly. It doesn’t actually help at all. It helped when I was on the phone yesterday and someone else was talking.
I don’t want to journal because I know that if I do I’ll most probably cut off from it. And I hate the disconnect. When I journal whilst I’m on edge, when I tune into it, I usually disconnect from it, which makes me wonder where reality is, or if what I’m writing is even what I think. I rather not do anything that will create the disconnection. Journaling does help me but it’s not worth it. Asides that I’ve literally nothing to say.