I just want to put this down. I really wanted to purge today. And I didnt. I tried but didnt force it. Just let it be. However nauseous I was. However much I felt like I couldn’t breathe. However much I knew it would be that way for I had way too much junk. It feels so major, though in some ways is so minor. And, I guess it is major because to me it is a big deal so it’s as big a deal as it is to me. I really really wanted to. And didn’t. It’s not something I make such an issue of staying away from for I don’t usually want to enough. I’m actually feeling pretty proud of myself for it though. Strangely enough.
Also, it’s a big deal for I’ve been doing it way more often re
I’m grateful. Was busy today. Journaled. Read. Spent time with family. Started a pilates class. Had a shower (what???? When it’s only Monday??) Which is another thing not trying to push too much. Loving my tidy room with all the cuteness. Texted someone who does energy work to make a phone appointment. That was really brave of me, for found it scary to ask for however much of a non issue I think it should be. I’m grateful I did for next week being rosh hashanah – jewish near year – is really freaking me out. I’m hoping the reasons are just anger and not more, for I’m not sure what any of my thoughts mean or are referencing. I’m hoping this phone appointment will calm some of it and make living through those days doable. I don’t care if I completely freak out then, so long as I get through them okay. I’ll speak to her (or not speak whilst she does dowsing or energy work or whatever) on Tuesday. I’m hoping I can do it during morning work hours so that I’ll have a break after before teaching.
This post was meant to just be the first paragraph. Ended up rambling way too much.
Thank you all for being here with me.
Love, light and glitter